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Thursday, 31 March 2011, 10:05
While i was looking at this picture i remembered something that happened to me when i was small. like about 4-5 i think?? i almost drowned. i was at one of my mom's friend condo and she had a son much older than me. We were playing in the pool while the moms were talking about god knows what -.- at that time i had no idea how to swim so i had to use the float thingy wadeva u call it. but the older boy was using a board. i always liked trying new things. maybe i was the same back then. i dun remb whether or not i asked the boy whether or not i cn use it. i think i prob did since back then, my mom was super strict about respect and proper behavior... japanese... so i think he said yes. when the boy left, i got off the float thingy -im still in the water- and grab on to the board. but it was slippery and the thing slip right out of my fingers. and then i drown. luckily my maid was brave enough to plunge herself right into the pool and save me. but it wasn't serious... i prob only drowned for about a few seconds... haha... then it got me thinking...everyone can't know how to swim by going into the water the for first time. unless u r a fish. So there are life savers to help you. you grab onto one and grab it. but sometimes, you might grab one that's not meant for you and you let slip through your fingers. then you drown. but the thing is, how long are you going to let yourself drown. you can either let yourself drown and die or you can gain the strength to take a breathe and use all your might to find another life saver. or if you're lucky enough, you will have a hand to help you up. its ok to slip and drown for a few sec, but don't do it to long. you need to wake up and quickly find your resolve and find something else. until you are strong enough to stay afloat all by yourself... but the thing is, the fact that you drowned b4 still remains. it will be in your memories. it happened. but how you do it and push it back is what keeps you alive.
i dunno whether ppl will understand. as i read through even i dun understand what the shit im talking about. i prefer saying it out loud then writing it... wait... its the same... zzzz arghhh.... my mind will forever be in a tornado of words. sigh, anyway its just something to fill this blog anyway, no one is gonna take time to read what i write.
buh-bye now...
