i really wish my mom fully understands wad i am doing. She always screams at me for always not being at home and when i told her its cuz i am helping out at an event or something she ignores that i am HELPING people. its not as if i don't want to be at home but i am busy, plus i want to hang out with my friends... is it so wrong to have friends? plus my birthday wasnt a really awesome one... ppl not knowing its my bday keep coming to me and keep telling me this got prob tht gt prob... I even had to beg my mom nt to scream at me yest... is my existence really nt wanted at all? my friends weren't happy on my birthday which made me feel worse. i dun even feel like inviting ppl to my place anymore for birthday dinner... i bet they'll come just for the food and not to celeb my birthday... i didn't even hear a happy birthday from someone yest even tho i met tht person... tht made me even more pissed. just a wish cn make me happy but u dun even bother saying.

thn 2dae.... ZZZZZdun even wan to say. mom just blaming for everything... wad is so wrong with helping? at least i am not doing drugs or out clubbing with people. I AM HELPING OUT AT AN EVENT. and u still cn scream at me. Everytime i help at an event you will just avoid my reason and tok about not bringing my dog out for a walk. my god my brother sits in his room for the whole freaking day and im out there being busy u still scold me for not bringing jekky out. Ryu chan can do it why not scold him? im tired, im busy... why you dun wan to understand... i know youre aso tired and busy... if u know wad it feels like why still scold me????

i know its a bit selfish to say this but if its my bday pls dun give me the depress or pek chek look to me. it frustrates me to see ppl like that on my bday, can't you at least be happy on my bday? its like you hate my existence, if you hate me so much just bloody hell say it. thn dun tok to me, seriously. fate hates me i get it, nothing gd ever happens around my bday. i GT it, my existence means nothing compared to you ppl. i m not worth anything, i am just there like a servant for your bloody needs. and thn gets yelled at for doing gd...