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Sunday, 4 December 2011, 04:50
Crumpling papers
Sigh... mix feelings... wan to b angry but aso cnnt. like i said here likedunno how many times... life is unfair... but there are times where one will think this is unfair-er. its when u suffer frm ppls unfairness. hmm how do i put it... it is unfair for tht person to get all yhese negative comment when all the persob is doin is to make ppl happy. but when she is in the process of getting over it, smeone gts the unfairness. like a loop no? mayb im not makin sense... nvm u dun have to get it. ure just ppl who r crazy who reads a 18 yr old girl from singapore's rant... yes im ranting... but im nt angry.. hmm ok mayb nt ranting but... letting my mind run abt~ free as it always will be in this blog.
on another X'mas is here!!! wonder wad ill b doin this yr?? will i find the one this yr or the nxt? or mayb nvr?? sigh... thinkin abt it sometimes give me depressive thoughts... well im 18 so talkin abt tgis is normal... rite?? aiyaaa dun judge ppl! i bet u guys have thought abt it! lol! but unlike other guys its harder for me i guess?? im nt fun, im sarcastic, straight to the pain and some times oblivious... :/ well neither am i cute or pretty, im just plain i guess :/ a plain asian lookin person :/ i sound like the crying girl frm utube.. the one who went nuts on utube saying 'do you love me now? now?' plus im surrounded by cute n pretty ppl... sigh it feels shitty to be the one ppl look second. i knw im not ugly or wad, i just look... normal i guess :/ lol well i dont have traits of a gd gf :/ im like thinkin bck to the ppl who like like me... did a bucket drop on their head? i cn nvr understand wad ppl will like abt me other thn just plain friens... mayb im not cut out for stuff like relationships... i nvr give advise whn friens r trouble with their love life... well its either i dun care or i just dunno how. if i bothered to listen but still i gt no advise means i care and just dunno wad to say k?! im just blur abt all this... like wad do i do and stuff like tht. my first was over the internet so technically i nvr had one b4 :3 my minds goin on n on :/ the last time i like a person, life gt in the way. and i dun like him i think i really love him... and i have a feelin he did return. but life gt in the way, and i left. it took me almost 5-6mths to gt over him... it took me almost a yr to realise i had strong feelings for him. we knew but we didnt say a word... the flame died without any flicker. it just died... now.. sighhh i might have a crush but a VERY VERY small one. do not be alarmed. i hate the thought of being in love with someone... yet i want it... i dun wan to type this all on a blog but i wan to say it out loud to tht person and have the person just hear. the person dun have to say anything. all i want is to know someone loves me for me. wonder whn will it ever happen? ppl always think i have a bf or ppl thinks tht ill b the first among all of my friends to gt married. but i doubt all tht. i mean seriously.. will u fall in love with me?
random thoughts of a normal teenager... no matter how cliche it sounds... this is wad it is...